Thin Walls Don’t Sleep

This song I wrote to portray the feelings a person has when a relationship is having difficulties. The first line,”Deep in a cloudless night, there’s not a dream in sight,” illustrates some of the problems that occur in those situations. The line, “Thin walls don’t sleep” is a metaphor for both the vulnerability one feels, and for the times when one hears every noise at night, and feels fear, because they are alone.

Thin Walls Don’t Sleep

Deep in a cloudless night, there’s not a dream in sight
No one to hold me tight, since you’ve gone away
Behind a broken door, my footsteps pace the floor
What were we fighting for, I wish you had stayed

THIN WALLS DON’T SLEEP, THE WALLS DON’T SLEEP
THIN WALLS DON’T SLEEP, WHEN WHAT I NEED IS YOU

A creeping on the stairs, noises everywhere
There’s probably nothing there, but I’m still afraid

THIN WALLS DON’T SLEEP, THE WALLS DON’T SLEEP
THIN WALLS DON’T SLEEP, WHEN WHAT I NEED IS YOU

(bridge) the comfort of your arms, helped me through
kept me safe and warm

© 83rd Street Music (BMI)

The weather here in Massachusetts has been fairly mild these past few days…unlike the turmoil that’s going on around the rest of the country. I read the newspapers and wonder if this is like the “calm before the storm”…I truly hope that no one is silly enough to use nuclear weapons against one another….that is mutual destruction, at best. Do we really want a world that is in darkness all the time? If we could only see and understand that we are all a part of each other….that what happens to each of us affects all of us….

Stuck in the Mud

If life is truly one huge highway, then we can be sure that the highway will cover all kinds of terrain. Hopefully, a long road that will have it’s share of hills and valleys. As long as we’re moving, regardless of time and speed, we are heading somewhere…the problems arise when we get sidetracked, confused, or simply stuck in the mud.

Each year I’m always surprised at the amount of people that I run into who seem to have, sadly, given up their dreams and just pass time doing the mundane, and without realizing it, given up. For some reason along the road of life they have decided that their dream is over, and it’s senseless to continue to try to reach their goals. On the human highway, they have guided their car off the road and into the mud. Once there, rather than try to get back on the road, they have decided to turn off the engine, and wait. All of our lives have value…no dream or goal is too big, and when we decide to quit, we give notice to ourselves and to others that we are just going to sit around and mark the time, until we die….finito. Doom and gloom, but that is what happens.

I will share with you a story that I think I have mentioned before. Natalie Wood, before she passed away, went to Russia to film a documentary on the people of the Soviet Union. At the time, Communism was in full play. As she went about the country, what started to strike her was that she noticed the people under thirty years old seemed alert and energetic, while after thirty, year by year people got heavy, and developed addictions to different types of substances, mostly alcohol. She came to the conclusion that in Russia, at that time, dreams died at the age of thirty. When I was back in my teens, I used to often go over to a particular friend’s house, and one day I noticed that her father was very sad. I said to my friend’s mother, “What’s wrong with your husband?” She said, “Jennifer, today he turned forty years old, and he realized that there are many things he will not be able to accomplish.” My friend’s father, I kid you not, was devastated at turning forty, and realizing that many of his dreams had not been accomplished by that age…so, I guess he was deciding to just give up…not being aware that perhaps these dreams and goals could still be realized, at fifty, sixty, or well beyond. Unfortunately, as we drive along the human highway, there are quite a few vehicles stuck in the mud.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve been stuck in the mud a couple of times. I just decided not to stay there….I got out of my car, found a couple of two by fours, stuck them under the back wheels, rocked the car back and forth, hit the gas, and never looked back! I refused to believe that there was no hope at getting back on the road. If one is stuck in the mud, someone can stop by to give you a hand….just make sure that their intentions are good. Each one of us is unique….and our goals and dreams are priceless. As long as we aim realistically, we can succeed. While there are those who never venture again out of the mud, there are far more who have learned to press onward. The mud can be a curse, or a blessing…how we handle it, we decide.

Onward and upward,

love, Jennifer Avalon
© 2006 Jennifer Avalon

Interview January 2006

Interviewer (Q) It’s been awhile…how are you?

Jennifer (A) I’m fine, thank you….and you?

Q. I’m well, thanks. I know we are going to discuss all subjects, music, essays, websites and the forthcoming video page. With all the changes at the websites, how has the past year been for you with your music and essays?

A: I feel very blessed because the number of hits to both sites is now over 4 million a year…I mean it’s really incredible. I still remember when I first began 8 years ago, and 32 people would visit my site and I would be thrilled…can you imagine how I feel now? And I still have most, if not all, of those original 32 people receiving the newsletter. I feel very, very blessed.

Q. Tell us a little about how both websites have grown?

A: Well, I think they’ve grown because I’m always adding new stuff to the sites….new quotes during the week, an essay every other week, um…. a new song a month, updates to the pages, and now I will be adding free video of the songs and essays in January, which I am very excited about. I remember the last interview I said that would happen, and that I would finally have to comb my hair….just kidding of course!

Q. Yes, I remember you mentioning that. You completed your CD “Crossroads” this year, how did it feel premiering a new song each month while it was being recorded?

A: I like it better than waiting until the record is entirely completed before sharing the songs with my fans. It just feels like a more natural process….I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s because a year is a long time to keep music in a box!

Q. You let people hear and download your music for free. How has that worked out.?

A: I’ll be honest with you, I don’t think there is an alternative. With file-sharing going on, an artist doesn’t really have much say in the matter anymore. But then again they never had much say with the record companies either. But my fans are very loyal, and they do donate, which I really appreciate. Can I take this moment to mention that all donations are truly appreciated?

Q.Of course you can! Your essays have touched quite a few people, some even highlight them on their personal websites. How does that make you feel?

A: I am mind blown by some of the responses to my essays. And to my music. I cry when I read certain letters from people. One man recently wrote me that he played my version of the song “Amazing Grace” at his son’s funeral…I mean, that really touched me. One person wrote that one of my essays stopped him from committing suicide. Another person said that she wants to play my song, “Two Hearts” at her wedding, thousands of miles away. This keeps me going, let me tell you. It doesn’t get much better than that.

Q. Can you say a few words about the amount of music that has been downloaded from your websites?

A: Oh, I thought I answered that already. Over 4 million hits to the sites a year, so I had to open another sister site, jenniferavalon.net. There was too much bandwidth being used up on just one site! The one site had to shut down briefly because of overload, so that’s when I decided it was time to open another site. It’s working out great now.

Q. What can we look forward to this coming year?

A: Well, as I mentioned, the biggest thing will be the free videos. We’ve been working very hard on them, filming all over the place and stuff. It’s very cold here in the northeast right now, so it’s been a bit of a challenge here and there, but, as they say, the show must go on! Each song has a different type of video for it, because each song has a different kind of mood. It’s really interesting to see what happens when one decides to combine visual with audio…I absolutely love the process.

Q. How has the free business model worked out for you?

A: Free is the way to go, because it reaches all over the globe. There is no barrier to free. But one must know how to live somewhat humbly to be able to afford to do it, if you know what I mean.

Q. Humbly? How so?

A: Well, I think in general it’s just wise to try to live humbly. Not be a pig.

Q. Well, I don’t think I’m going to touch that one! Tell us about your next CD “Paradox”? I understand the first song from the sessions will be the January song of the month.

A: Thanks for asking….the next song is called, “Darkest Before the Dawn.” I’m in the middle of recording it as we speak, as a matter of fact. It will be released January.

Q. Music, essays, and videos….any movies in the future?

A: Movies? Well, I guess if someone sees me and thinks I can be an actress….I wouldn’t say no to a great part (laughter) I mean, I don’t really think that way. My videos are a way to express visually what I am trying to convey in my songs…you know what I mean? I have been stopped on the street in my life by people who’ve thought they’ve seen me from somewhere….they think they’ve seen me on t.v. or in the movies or something. The same thing used to happen to my Dad. I guess we both have a certain type of look or something.

Q. What does Jennifer Avalon like to do in her spare time?

A: I particularly like this question…thanks for asking it. When I’m not writing or recording, my favorite thing to do, I think, is to play with my doggies, and cook. I also love to read, especially at night, when it’s dark outside and I can lay in bed under warm covers with a good reading light. I also like certain television shows, like “24”, and “The 4400” and a few others.

Q. Understood. 2006 is looking like a big year for you. What will the introduction of videos bring to the music and essay pages?

A: Video is a whole different “animal.” It adds another dimension, I feel, to the music, and to the essays. The music will become three dimensional, in a sense, and the essays will have a new life….I will be recording them with my voice, and with visuals. I am so excited about adding this dimension…it’s not only fun, but I feel like my fans will get to know me better, and vice-versa. There are some wonderful people out there, let me tell you. I wish I could personally meet everyone who visits my sites, but of course that would be an impossibility.

Q. As a final question, what would you like to say to the folks who visit your websites?

A: If I can give even just one second of happiness to those who visit my sites, then I will feel I have “done my job.” Peace of mind is everything, and that’s what I wish most of all for those who come to listen and feel and see, at my sites.

Q. Thanks Jennifer, much continued success. I feel peaceful just having been around you today…thanks.

A: You’re very welcome….have a wonderful week. Don’t get too stressed out..it’s crazy out there right now!

Q. I won’t. Thanks again.

A: You’re welcome. Take care…. bye bye.

Sixty Years

I wrote “Sixty Years” because I was trying to explain how, when you really love someone, no length of time you spend with them is ever enough….you always feel you could use more time. I also believe that it is only the two people in the relationship who really ultimately know and understand each other, hence the line “We’ll be a mystery, sharing a history,”….”that’s what real love is all about.”

Sixty Years
by Jennifer Avalon & Noel Boland

Looking forward and down the road
Knowing you’re by my side
Nothing can break me, you’ll always save me
Knowing that maybe you’ve sacrificed

Best foot forward, no turning back
Angels don’t always have wings
Just to know you, see, hear and hold you
I’ll remember these precious things

SIXTY YEARS WILL NEVER DO
I NEED MORE LIFETIMES TO SPEND WITH YOU
WHEN OUR LIVES ARE ALMOST THROUGH
SIXTY YEARS WILL FEEL LIKE TWO

Old people, with laughing eyes
One day, I have no doubt
We’ll be a mystery, sharing a history
That’s what real love is all about

(Repeat Chorus)
© Avalon & Boland

Deep Within the Fire

To me, “Faith” is the most important thing a person can have…because it requires a lessening, and eventually giving up, of the Ego. The “Holy Spirit” is the bond that ties God, Jesus, and all of us together….the Love that connects us all. In my song “Deep Within the Fire” I tried to convey the power of the Holy Spirit as the flames of healing…Heaven is a warm place, a place of healing. Hell is a cold place…a place where the soul is fixed in an icy state. Only when the flames of the Holy Spirit melts the soul on ice, can one be healed. When one has Faith, the needs of the soul are answered.

DEEP WITHIN THE FIRE
by Jennifer Avalon & Noel Boland

Jesus said don’t you worry ’bout your life,
What you will eat or drink God will provide
If you believe in the One on High

Look at the birds that fly upon the air,
They soar among the clouds without a care
The seeds that feed them will be always there

The Father, Son, and the Holy Ghost
The Trinity that will save the most

DEEP WITHIN THE FIRE IS THE HOLY SPIRIT CALLIN YOUR NAME
(within the fire Holy Spirit reaches out in a blaze)
DEEP WITHIN THE FIRE IS THE HOLY SPIRIT CALLIN YOUR NAME
(within the fire Holy Spirit shows the Light and The Way)

Ask and it will be given all to you,
Seek and you’ll find the Sacred Truth
Knock and the door will open wide for you

Father, Son, and the Holy Ghost,
The Trinity that will save the most

(repeat chorus)

bridge:
to be written in the Book of Life, forever known
with God you’re never alone

© Avalon & Boland

Family of Man

I wrote “Family of Man” because I wanted to express the thought that all of us are running around like maniacs while the ship seems to be going down….and the things we should be paying attention to, we don’t, because we’re so busy with our daily lives. Meanwhile, “the lion stalks the lamb,” and if we begin to pay attention, we will begin to, as I say at the end of the song, start to love “Your brother (time to love your brother), one another (show love to one another),” which, really, is the only way to change things…with love…because we are all, when all is said and done, in the “Family of Man.”

FAMILY OF MAN
by Jennifer Avalon & Noel Boland

We celebrate, for what it’s worth
We are the actors in this show on earth
And everybody has got a part
Don’t need rehearsin’ know our lines by heart

Oh tell me why, we’re in a hurry
We all seem to have our own place on stage
Oh tell me why, why do we worry
When we could be wearin’ a happy face

OH…IN THE FAMILY OF MAN, IN THE FAMILY OF MAN
THE LION STALKS THE LAMB
IN THE FAMILY OF MAN

Bees in a hive, buzzin’ around
We’re makin’ honey as the ship goes down
Sweet Jesus hear us and throw a line
I know you’ll answer if we ask in time

‘Cause you know why, we’re in a hurry
We’re all really searchin’ for a better place
And you know why, why we are worried
We seem to be runnin’ out of time and space

(REPEAT CHORUS)

Up on high, there’s judge and jury
They know the solution to this troubled case
And in their eyes, the answer is surely
That love is the savior for the human race

Refrain:
Your brother (time to love your brother)
One another (Show love to one another)
Your brother (Time to love your brother)
One another (show love to one another)

© 83rd Street Music (BMI)

Shalimar

The song “Shalimar,” from the CD Phoenix Rising, was written with the idea that true peace of mind comes from within… that in each of us is a sacred place where our souls reside… and in that place is where peace of mind can truly be found. In ancient India, from what I understand the gardens of Heaven were referred to as “Shalimar,” hence I used that word to describe that special, peaceful place.

SHALIMAR
by Jennifer Avalon & Noel Boland

All around the world
There’s a feeling, something’s going down
No one’s really sure
How to turn the madness around

If we could only we find
A sacred state of mind

SHALIMAR
IT ISN’T VERY FAR
AN OASIS OF THE HEART
SHALIMAR

A hunger in the soul
When the spirit doesn’t have enough
Sadness takes its toll
In the end the only cure is love

The answer’s deep inside
If we just take the time

SHALIMAR
IT ISN’T VERY FAR
AN OASIS OF THE HEART
SHALIMAR
SHALIMAR
NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE
EACH OF US IS PART
OF SHALIMAR

Bridge: Look for the hidden signs, that guide us down the road
The truths we left behind are what we need to know

© 83rd Street Music (BMI)

Silent Witness

The song “Silent Witness” from the CD Sandcastles, was written after I heard a true story about the legendary guitar player and inventor Les Paul, and his beloved wife, the singer Mary Ford. Apparently they divorced, partly from the strains of being in the music business together, and tragically, after Mary Ford passed away, Les Paul said that all they had really needed was a vacation… not a divorce. I wrote it from the perspective of the one who was “left behind”…. being watched by the one in Heaven… the “Silent Witness” who still cares and watches over their loved one. Les Paul actually got to hear the song, and told me he loved it. When I lived in New York I used to go down to the jazz club “Fat Tuesdays” to hear Les Paul play his guitar…what a performer, and what a great storyteller also!!!

SILENT WITNESS
by Jennifer Avalon & Noel Boland

When I lay myself upon the sheets
I pray to the Lord my soul to keep
Every night before I fall asleep, I think of you

Somehow when the stars are in the sky
I have to wipe the tears that fill my eyes
Everytime your memory passes by, I break in two

because nothing has replaced you
and no one can fill your shoes

SILENT WITNESS, THOUGH DEATH DID PART US
NOTHING WILL SEPARATE OUR TWO HEARTS
YOU’RE MY SILENT WITNESS WATCHING IN MY SLEEP
I ALMOST CAN HEAR YOU BREATHE, SILENTLY

If I had it all to do again
I wouldn’t trade a single moment spent
Many times I sit remembering when, I fell for you

because life was never better
your love transformed this fool

SILENT WITNESS, THOUGH DEATH DID PART US
NOTHING WILL SEPARATE OUR TWO HEARTS
YOU’RE MY SILENT WITNESS WATCHING OVER ME
I ALMOST CAN HEAR YOU SPEAK

your photograph remains beside my bed
I know someday our eyes will meet again

YOU’RE MY SILENT WITNESS WATCHING IN MY SLEEP
SILENT WITNESS WATCHING OVER ME
YOU’RE MY SILENT WITNESS WAITING PATIENTLY, TO MEET IN ETERNITY

© Jennifer Avalon

Prayer for Peace

The song Prayer for Peace, from the CD Peace in The Valley, opens with the phrase, “a cradle and a grave, a sandstone wall in sight, on a hill so far away, a city bathed in light…” I had visited Jerusalem many years ago, and I remember standing on a hill outside the walls of the city, and actually seeing a golden light emanating from the city…it blew me away, and so I decided to try to write a song that reflected my feelings about that experience. In another part of the song I wrote, “a vessel shaped by hand, a tapestry of white, the sandaled feet that walked the land where Prophets gave their lives,”….this had to do with all the Holy men and women who have walked the deserts of the Middle East, in search, ultimately, for Peace. This song is my prayer, in honor of those who have, and continue to, dream of Peace.

PRAYER FOR PEACE
by Jennifer Avalon & Noel Boland

A cradle and a grave
A sandstone wall in sight
On a hill so far away
A city bathed in light
And the doves that fly beyond the dome are
Heading for the sky
For the promise of the day, when all unite
All unite

All children of one God
Though separate in their faiths
They must fill their hearts with love
To find a better way
And the tears that fall behind closed doors
They will soon be dried
For the promise of the day, when all unite
All unite

A PRAYER FOR PEACE
PRAYER FOR PEACE

A vessel shaped by hand
A tapestry of white
The sandaled feet that walk the land
Where prophets gave their lives
The prayers that fill the desert air
In the dark of night
For the promise of the day, when all unite
All unite

A PRAYER FOR PEACE
PRAYER FOR PEACE
A PRAYER FOR PEACE
PRAYER FOR PEACE

© Jennifer Avalon