Saints and Sinners

Although I am a Christian, I always try to look inside, look around, to the future, and to the past, to understand why I am here, and what it is I am to learn. That involves being honest with myself, and passing along that which I have found baffling. I truly believe that each generation of mankind has to evolve and become better, in order for the world to move forward and survive. Over two thousand years ago Jesus Christ walked the earth, and left behind an incredible collection of thoughts, beliefs, and miracles. The Prophets of the Old Testament also left their wisdom for us to become better spiritual beings. Other religions, too, have contributed their share to the human library. Yet, isn’t it strange…with all this knowledge that has been recited, over and over again, we as a planet are still but a blink away from extinction. Have the Words of the Heavens fallen on generations of deaf ears? or are we the society that is supposed to wake up?

Through wars, natural catastrophes, scandals, and holocausts, man was supposed to learn from his mistakes and never repeat them. Yet today if one was to look around at the state of our planet, one would be hard-pressed to understand why the Holy Books that are close to our fingers, have been pushed so far away. The purpose of mankind was supposed to be to climb the spiritual staircase to bring us closer to God. Over time, the gap between Heaven and earth was supposed to close…yet today, it seems wider. We seem, as a society, to be obsessed with the physical….the latest gadget, or car, the so-called “flavor of the month,”….while our spirits seem to have been placed on the back-burner, hoping one day to find the time to get to them. Two thousand years on from Christ, we have placed a man on the moon, developed “wonder drugs,” scaled the walls of invention, and oh yes,….we have created enough nuclear warheads to destroy our planet many times over. A real Christ-like solution to our problems.

Every day I read about another wonderful person who contributes large sums of money to a worthy cause, or a good soul who does a good deed to change the life of someone in need. Through the ages, there are books filled with these types of individuals. Wonderful examples of humanity. Yet over the centuries, what has overall stopped us from climbing that spiritual staircase? There are always those that do….those that figure it out. Still, there are so many who starve the soul, for an ounce of gold. Saints and Sinners…all occupying the same space. I heard tonight on the evening news that 97% of Americans say they believe in God….interesting….
So folks, I think the mantel has been passed to us, every citizen of the world….it is all of our turn to try to turn the corner towards enlightenment. It can be done….but in the nuclear age, it MUST be done. If man was truly made in the image of God, it is time for man to hold up the mirror.
keep climbing the staircase,

love, Jennifer Avalon

© 2006 Jennifer Avalon

Master P.

One of the popular shows on television right now is “Dancing With The Stars,” on the ABC network. For those who have not seen it, the series scenario is matching a professional dancer with a celebrity. They then compete against each other as couples. The dancing couples each cater to a different demographic…some for the young, some for the old. Three judges critique their performances, and the other half of the scoring is based upon the amount of people in the viewing audience who call in to vote for their favorite couple. Each week a different dance is assigned and each couple is judged on their performance. For me, the real unusual star of the show is a rapper who goes by the name of “Master P.”

Why “Master P.” you may ask? Because he has told everyone that he is going to participate in the competition on his own terms. Dancing shoes? not for Master P.! He has stubbornly said to the judges that he only dances in his lucky basketball shoes. He says he is there to represent the “hood,” his hometown posse, who seem to support him loyally. Master P. is no twinkle toes on the dance floor…in fact, he comes across as a lumbering jack, practically with two left feet….still, he appeared to give it his all, under his own terms. Of course, this infuriates the judges and perhaps even some of the viewing audience. Yet, for the past three weeks Master P. has surprised many by not being eliminated from the competition. This past week one judge even said to Master P. that he thought he and the show should, “Part ways.” This made Master P. furious, but ironically when audience voting tabulations were made, Master P. was still in the game.

For me, if Master P. had no idea how to dance, or didn’t have the talent or finesse to tackle the moves, I would admire his gusto and bravery to attempt the moves. That changed this week when a scene on the show revealed that Master P. is a wizard on the basketball court. The segment showed that not only can Master P. shoot hoops half a court away, he can also do it with his back turned. The man is an extraordinary athlete…then how come that finesse and talent is not being transferred to the dance floor? It begins to appear that Master P. is choosing not to see the connection between basketball and dancing…how many times have we seen basketball players dance with the ball around the court? Still, he is able to receive more than enough audience votes to keep him fully in the competition. It appeared that one of the judges was willing to look over Master P.’s shortcomings, in believing that he may not have been that talented….but when he saw him come alive on the basketball court, his sympathy went out the window.

I believe Master P. is still in the competition because he has a loyal fan base, the ingredients of hidden potential, a competitor who is competing on his own terms, and a person who shows a different angle to the intricacies of ballroom dancing. Tell me, when was the last time you got to see a rapper ballroom dancing on national television? We can say what we want about Master P., but one things for sure, he’s got spunk! Some are loving every move…while others…. he is driving them crazy! As long as Master P. stays in the competition, the element of surprise will always be in play.

All the world’s a stage,
Jennifer Avalon

© 2006 Jennifer Avalon

Thin Walls Don’t Sleep

This song I wrote to portray the feelings a person has when a relationship is having difficulties. The first line,”Deep in a cloudless night, there’s not a dream in sight,” illustrates some of the problems that occur in those situations. The line, “Thin walls don’t sleep” is a metaphor for both the vulnerability one feels, and for the times when one hears every noise at night, and feels fear, because they are alone.

Thin Walls Don’t Sleep

Deep in a cloudless night, there’s not a dream in sight
No one to hold me tight, since you’ve gone away
Behind a broken door, my footsteps pace the floor
What were we fighting for, I wish you had stayed

THIN WALLS DON’T SLEEP, THE WALLS DON’T SLEEP
THIN WALLS DON’T SLEEP, WHEN WHAT I NEED IS YOU

A creeping on the stairs, noises everywhere
There’s probably nothing there, but I’m still afraid

THIN WALLS DON’T SLEEP, THE WALLS DON’T SLEEP
THIN WALLS DON’T SLEEP, WHEN WHAT I NEED IS YOU

(bridge) the comfort of your arms, helped me through
kept me safe and warm

© 83rd Street Music (BMI)

The weather here in Massachusetts has been fairly mild these past few days…unlike the turmoil that’s going on around the rest of the country. I read the newspapers and wonder if this is like the “calm before the storm”…I truly hope that no one is silly enough to use nuclear weapons against one another….that is mutual destruction, at best. Do we really want a world that is in darkness all the time? If we could only see and understand that we are all a part of each other….that what happens to each of us affects all of us….

Stuck in the Mud

If life is truly one huge highway, then we can be sure that the highway will cover all kinds of terrain. Hopefully, a long road that will have it’s share of hills and valleys. As long as we’re moving, regardless of time and speed, we are heading somewhere…the problems arise when we get sidetracked, confused, or simply stuck in the mud.

Each year I’m always surprised at the amount of people that I run into who seem to have, sadly, given up their dreams and just pass time doing the mundane, and without realizing it, given up. For some reason along the road of life they have decided that their dream is over, and it’s senseless to continue to try to reach their goals. On the human highway, they have guided their car off the road and into the mud. Once there, rather than try to get back on the road, they have decided to turn off the engine, and wait. All of our lives have value…no dream or goal is too big, and when we decide to quit, we give notice to ourselves and to others that we are just going to sit around and mark the time, until we die….finito. Doom and gloom, but that is what happens.

I will share with you a story that I think I have mentioned before. Natalie Wood, before she passed away, went to Russia to film a documentary on the people of the Soviet Union. At the time, Communism was in full play. As she went about the country, what started to strike her was that she noticed the people under thirty years old seemed alert and energetic, while after thirty, year by year people got heavy, and developed addictions to different types of substances, mostly alcohol. She came to the conclusion that in Russia, at that time, dreams died at the age of thirty. When I was back in my teens, I used to often go over to a particular friend’s house, and one day I noticed that her father was very sad. I said to my friend’s mother, “What’s wrong with your husband?” She said, “Jennifer, today he turned forty years old, and he realized that there are many things he will not be able to accomplish.” My friend’s father, I kid you not, was devastated at turning forty, and realizing that many of his dreams had not been accomplished by that age…so, I guess he was deciding to just give up…not being aware that perhaps these dreams and goals could still be realized, at fifty, sixty, or well beyond. Unfortunately, as we drive along the human highway, there are quite a few vehicles stuck in the mud.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve been stuck in the mud a couple of times. I just decided not to stay there….I got out of my car, found a couple of two by fours, stuck them under the back wheels, rocked the car back and forth, hit the gas, and never looked back! I refused to believe that there was no hope at getting back on the road. If one is stuck in the mud, someone can stop by to give you a hand….just make sure that their intentions are good. Each one of us is unique….and our goals and dreams are priceless. As long as we aim realistically, we can succeed. While there are those who never venture again out of the mud, there are far more who have learned to press onward. The mud can be a curse, or a blessing…how we handle it, we decide.

Onward and upward,

love, Jennifer Avalon
© 2006 Jennifer Avalon

Interview January 2006

Interviewer (Q) It’s been awhile…how are you?

Jennifer (A) I’m fine, thank you….and you?

Q. I’m well, thanks. I know we are going to discuss all subjects, music, essays, websites and the forthcoming video page. With all the changes at the websites, how has the past year been for you with your music and essays?

A: I feel very blessed because the number of hits to both sites is now over 4 million a year…I mean it’s really incredible. I still remember when I first began 8 years ago, and 32 people would visit my site and I would be thrilled…can you imagine how I feel now? And I still have most, if not all, of those original 32 people receiving the newsletter. I feel very, very blessed.

Q. Tell us a little about how both websites have grown?

A: Well, I think they’ve grown because I’m always adding new stuff to the sites….new quotes during the week, an essay every other week, um…. a new song a month, updates to the pages, and now I will be adding free video of the songs and essays in January, which I am very excited about. I remember the last interview I said that would happen, and that I would finally have to comb my hair….just kidding of course!

Q. Yes, I remember you mentioning that. You completed your CD “Crossroads” this year, how did it feel premiering a new song each month while it was being recorded?

A: I like it better than waiting until the record is entirely completed before sharing the songs with my fans. It just feels like a more natural process….I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s because a year is a long time to keep music in a box!

Q. You let people hear and download your music for free. How has that worked out.?

A: I’ll be honest with you, I don’t think there is an alternative. With file-sharing going on, an artist doesn’t really have much say in the matter anymore. But then again they never had much say with the record companies either. But my fans are very loyal, and they do donate, which I really appreciate. Can I take this moment to mention that all donations are truly appreciated?

Q.Of course you can! Your essays have touched quite a few people, some even highlight them on their personal websites. How does that make you feel?

A: I am mind blown by some of the responses to my essays. And to my music. I cry when I read certain letters from people. One man recently wrote me that he played my version of the song “Amazing Grace” at his son’s funeral…I mean, that really touched me. One person wrote that one of my essays stopped him from committing suicide. Another person said that she wants to play my song, “Two Hearts” at her wedding, thousands of miles away. This keeps me going, let me tell you. It doesn’t get much better than that.

Q. Can you say a few words about the amount of music that has been downloaded from your websites?

A: Oh, I thought I answered that already. Over 4 million hits to the sites a year, so I had to open another sister site, jenniferavalon.net. There was too much bandwidth being used up on just one site! The one site had to shut down briefly because of overload, so that’s when I decided it was time to open another site. It’s working out great now.

Q. What can we look forward to this coming year?

A: Well, as I mentioned, the biggest thing will be the free videos. We’ve been working very hard on them, filming all over the place and stuff. It’s very cold here in the northeast right now, so it’s been a bit of a challenge here and there, but, as they say, the show must go on! Each song has a different type of video for it, because each song has a different kind of mood. It’s really interesting to see what happens when one decides to combine visual with audio…I absolutely love the process.

Q. How has the free business model worked out for you?

A: Free is the way to go, because it reaches all over the globe. There is no barrier to free. But one must know how to live somewhat humbly to be able to afford to do it, if you know what I mean.

Q. Humbly? How so?

A: Well, I think in general it’s just wise to try to live humbly. Not be a pig.

Q. Well, I don’t think I’m going to touch that one! Tell us about your next CD “Paradox”? I understand the first song from the sessions will be the January song of the month.

A: Thanks for asking….the next song is called, “Darkest Before the Dawn.” I’m in the middle of recording it as we speak, as a matter of fact. It will be released January.

Q. Music, essays, and videos….any movies in the future?

A: Movies? Well, I guess if someone sees me and thinks I can be an actress….I wouldn’t say no to a great part (laughter) I mean, I don’t really think that way. My videos are a way to express visually what I am trying to convey in my songs…you know what I mean? I have been stopped on the street in my life by people who’ve thought they’ve seen me from somewhere….they think they’ve seen me on t.v. or in the movies or something. The same thing used to happen to my Dad. I guess we both have a certain type of look or something.

Q. What does Jennifer Avalon like to do in her spare time?

A: I particularly like this question…thanks for asking it. When I’m not writing or recording, my favorite thing to do, I think, is to play with my doggies, and cook. I also love to read, especially at night, when it’s dark outside and I can lay in bed under warm covers with a good reading light. I also like certain television shows, like “24”, and “The 4400” and a few others.

Q. Understood. 2006 is looking like a big year for you. What will the introduction of videos bring to the music and essay pages?

A: Video is a whole different “animal.” It adds another dimension, I feel, to the music, and to the essays. The music will become three dimensional, in a sense, and the essays will have a new life….I will be recording them with my voice, and with visuals. I am so excited about adding this dimension…it’s not only fun, but I feel like my fans will get to know me better, and vice-versa. There are some wonderful people out there, let me tell you. I wish I could personally meet everyone who visits my sites, but of course that would be an impossibility.

Q. As a final question, what would you like to say to the folks who visit your websites?

A: If I can give even just one second of happiness to those who visit my sites, then I will feel I have “done my job.” Peace of mind is everything, and that’s what I wish most of all for those who come to listen and feel and see, at my sites.

Q. Thanks Jennifer, much continued success. I feel peaceful just having been around you today…thanks.

A: You’re very welcome….have a wonderful week. Don’t get too stressed out..it’s crazy out there right now!

Q. I won’t. Thanks again.

A: You’re welcome. Take care…. bye bye.

Sixty Years

I wrote “Sixty Years” because I was trying to explain how, when you really love someone, no length of time you spend with them is ever enough….you always feel you could use more time. I also believe that it is only the two people in the relationship who really ultimately know and understand each other, hence the line “We’ll be a mystery, sharing a history,”….”that’s what real love is all about.”

Sixty Years
by Jennifer Avalon & Noel Boland

Looking forward and down the road
Knowing you’re by my side
Nothing can break me, you’ll always save me
Knowing that maybe you’ve sacrificed

Best foot forward, no turning back
Angels don’t always have wings
Just to know you, see, hear and hold you
I’ll remember these precious things

SIXTY YEARS WILL NEVER DO
I NEED MORE LIFETIMES TO SPEND WITH YOU
WHEN OUR LIVES ARE ALMOST THROUGH
SIXTY YEARS WILL FEEL LIKE TWO

Old people, with laughing eyes
One day, I have no doubt
We’ll be a mystery, sharing a history
That’s what real love is all about

(Repeat Chorus)
© Avalon & Boland

Deep Within the Fire

To me, “Faith” is the most important thing a person can have…because it requires a lessening, and eventually giving up, of the Ego. The “Holy Spirit” is the bond that ties God, Jesus, and all of us together….the Love that connects us all. In my song “Deep Within the Fire” I tried to convey the power of the Holy Spirit as the flames of healing…Heaven is a warm place, a place of healing. Hell is a cold place…a place where the soul is fixed in an icy state. Only when the flames of the Holy Spirit melts the soul on ice, can one be healed. When one has Faith, the needs of the soul are answered.

DEEP WITHIN THE FIRE
by Jennifer Avalon & Noel Boland

Jesus said don’t you worry ’bout your life,
What you will eat or drink God will provide
If you believe in the One on High

Look at the birds that fly upon the air,
They soar among the clouds without a care
The seeds that feed them will be always there

The Father, Son, and the Holy Ghost
The Trinity that will save the most

DEEP WITHIN THE FIRE IS THE HOLY SPIRIT CALLIN YOUR NAME
(within the fire Holy Spirit reaches out in a blaze)
DEEP WITHIN THE FIRE IS THE HOLY SPIRIT CALLIN YOUR NAME
(within the fire Holy Spirit shows the Light and The Way)

Ask and it will be given all to you,
Seek and you’ll find the Sacred Truth
Knock and the door will open wide for you

Father, Son, and the Holy Ghost,
The Trinity that will save the most

(repeat chorus)

bridge:
to be written in the Book of Life, forever known
with God you’re never alone

© Avalon & Boland

Family of Man

I wrote “Family of Man” because I wanted to express the thought that all of us are running around like maniacs while the ship seems to be going down….and the things we should be paying attention to, we don’t, because we’re so busy with our daily lives. Meanwhile, “the lion stalks the lamb,” and if we begin to pay attention, we will begin to, as I say at the end of the song, start to love “Your brother (time to love your brother), one another (show love to one another),” which, really, is the only way to change things…with love…because we are all, when all is said and done, in the “Family of Man.”

FAMILY OF MAN
by Jennifer Avalon & Noel Boland

We celebrate, for what it’s worth
We are the actors in this show on earth
And everybody has got a part
Don’t need rehearsin’ know our lines by heart

Oh tell me why, we’re in a hurry
We all seem to have our own place on stage
Oh tell me why, why do we worry
When we could be wearin’ a happy face

OH…IN THE FAMILY OF MAN, IN THE FAMILY OF MAN
THE LION STALKS THE LAMB
IN THE FAMILY OF MAN

Bees in a hive, buzzin’ around
We’re makin’ honey as the ship goes down
Sweet Jesus hear us and throw a line
I know you’ll answer if we ask in time

‘Cause you know why, we’re in a hurry
We’re all really searchin’ for a better place
And you know why, why we are worried
We seem to be runnin’ out of time and space

(REPEAT CHORUS)

Up on high, there’s judge and jury
They know the solution to this troubled case
And in their eyes, the answer is surely
That love is the savior for the human race

Refrain:
Your brother (time to love your brother)
One another (Show love to one another)
Your brother (Time to love your brother)
One another (show love to one another)

© 83rd Street Music (BMI)

Shalimar

The song “Shalimar,” from the CD Phoenix Rising, was written with the idea that true peace of mind comes from within… that in each of us is a sacred place where our souls reside… and in that place is where peace of mind can truly be found. In ancient India, from what I understand the gardens of Heaven were referred to as “Shalimar,” hence I used that word to describe that special, peaceful place.

SHALIMAR
by Jennifer Avalon & Noel Boland

All around the world
There’s a feeling, something’s going down
No one’s really sure
How to turn the madness around

If we could only we find
A sacred state of mind

SHALIMAR
IT ISN’T VERY FAR
AN OASIS OF THE HEART
SHALIMAR

A hunger in the soul
When the spirit doesn’t have enough
Sadness takes its toll
In the end the only cure is love

The answer’s deep inside
If we just take the time

SHALIMAR
IT ISN’T VERY FAR
AN OASIS OF THE HEART
SHALIMAR
SHALIMAR
NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE
EACH OF US IS PART
OF SHALIMAR

Bridge: Look for the hidden signs, that guide us down the road
The truths we left behind are what we need to know

© 83rd Street Music (BMI)