Every morning we get up and go about our day heavily influenced by the things that happen to us. After awhile we start to resemble a bouncing ball that bounces from side to side, never knowing where it’s going next. It seems to be a process that continues year after year, and as we look back we never seem to quite know where the time went. Many times in my life I’ve felt like a sailor on a ship that had no destination or course. The steering wheel turned where it wanted, with no one showing the way. At some point each one of us has to walk towards that wheel, as fearful as it may seem, and grab it and begin to take control of our lives. As we chart our course we have to ask ourselves “Who am I? And where am I going?” One thing I’ve learned along the way is that if I’m not honest with myself about what it is that I want to do with my life, it becomes almost impossible to find a sense of fulfillment and a lasting happiness. I’ve tried to do a number of things in life…most of the time for the wrong reasons. I guess we all become preoccupied with what it is other people want us to be, sometimes even with good intentions. It’s important at certain points to stop and listen to your heart. In my case, I’ve always loved writing songs…songs that say things, not just something with a good beat. It took me awhile to accept that this was what I must do with my life. Part of the reason it took me awhile to accept this was because it meant taking risks. I am currently at work on my third album. The letters that I have received from people regarding my first two records are the fuel that keeps my ship going and on course. In my life I find spiritual guidance and personal reflection a very valuable source for the times when I get scared and feel that I’m losing my way. With God’s help, the answers come, and my music keeps evolving. My ship sometimes sails through stormy weather but what keeps me going is that somewhere on the horizon I know I will see the sun. Very rarely is there smooth sailing all of the time. We must battle our storms…but the journey must be undertaken so that we can see how important and needed we are as individuals. So if you haven’t already, don’t be afraid…take control of your ship. Sail the sea to your destination and discover the wonder of who you are and what you can be.
Â© 1997 Jennifer Avalon